It is often, far too easy, to allow yourself to become engulfed in self pity. I
know this because for the past month or so that is what I have allowed to
happen. Instead of focusing on the good things in my life I allowed myself to
be dragged into a world of hurt, pain and sorrow. I focused on all the things I
had no control over and let the darkness eat away at my soul.
isn't meant to be easy. We are all blessed with fantastic lives and wonderful
attitudes. Every now and then i think it is natural for us, as humans, to get
sucked into the darkness of depression and stress. It is how you work to get
yourself out of the darkness that counts.
I am glad that I can now see
what it was doing to me. Taking me away for my friends, shutting down my
writing and making me one unhappy person to be around. No is the time for
change, time for me to pick myself back up and dust myself off. Most of all it
is time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and to be at peace with the
things in my life that i can't change. You can not control what life throws at
you, only what you do and how you do it.
I know it wont be easy, these
last two years haven't been easy. But I am finally healthy (thank goodness) and
my writing was going great. I hopefully don't have to go through any more blood
tests (if i be good) and the only doctors I will see will be the ones who treat
me for stuff like the common cold etc. And even though I know next year will be
just as hard as this year I am ready to accept it and move forward, starting
with me writing this blog and committing to getting positive and being happy
So now for the writing news :)
Well Death Lilly is
only 3 months away woo hoo!
I have 6 stories submitted two novellas and
four short stories.
A story coming out in a FREE anthology by authors from
our goodreads group http://www.goodreads.com/group/show/65690-paranormal-and-horror-lovers
have one story sitting at 18k waiting for me to get over my funk and write some
more and I have a few more sitting at only a few thousand words also waiting to
Thank you guys for reading this! Taking the time to let me
share with you a part of my life. It is a real blessing to have people who are
willing and wanting to be apart of your life, even if it is only online!