I have exciting news, Blood Lilly is off for proofing before landing on my publishers desk. As a little bit of a treat for those who enjoyed Death Lilly here is a sneak peek at the rough draft of Chapter 2...enjoy
(please note this chapter may have changes due to editing process)
It was night three in this hell hole and I was beginning to go mad. I didn’t leave my room for fear of not knowing who was out to get me. Jude hadn’t come back like he promised and even though I had some serious talking to do with him killing my mom, I was still scared. Jude was my only friend and that was saying a lot about the people I hung around with. One minute my life seemed prefect the next minute the guy I loved had disappeared and the guy I was going out with was trying to kill me…well he was now I think and all over some stupid prophecy. I was hot property in the demon world and a huge liability to angels. Yay for me! On top of that I had only recently worked out that demons could walk in dreams, taking them over. Every time I shut my eyes I wondered if it would happen. Basically to sum it all up my life was a mess. I was a huge mess! And… the world didn’t even know what was going on.
I knew it was shallow of me, still that didn’t stop me from wishing it were true. My home was probably gone, my family…well I had none except for father who I was sure had some part in my mother’s death and I doubted he wanted to do the family reunion thing anytime soon. My friends had been all a part of the fallen which meant they were demons. Jude was a cursed one which meant he killed demons, like my mom and also he was meant to kill me over a year ago now. I didn’t know why he hadn’t but something stopped him and made him my friend.
I looked at the neon flashing lights on the little bedside alarm clock radio and sighed. Only a few hours until midnight and then would begin day four. Waiting was not my favorite thing to do. I was so sick and tired of waiting around to see what happens next. I wanted to find Jude and I want to kill Cyan. Well if I were being honest I wasn’t sure if I could kill him but I knew that I hurt him and that would make me feel better. For now I couldn’t even think of the others. Paige, Amy, Tyler…they all deserved to pay for the lies they told me. I really hoped that Jude had been able to kill at least one of them. Of course there was Levi, I tried to not think about him, my chest would ache and tears would flow when I did. I hadn’t really had time to process my feelings for him and what he had done to me. Cayn and Levi had broken me like no others before them. Something inside me was gone, stolen from me at the hands of their games. I wasn’t sure I believed in love anymore. I hoped that Levi would stay out of my life forever; he was far too dangerous to be in it. Something told me that if he came back I would find it too hard to tell him to go away. I didn’t have the strength in me to watch him walk away again. Tears prickled my eyes as I hugged the flat pillow for comfort. I wanted to be stronger than this, I needed to be. For the first time in ages I felt myself drift off to sleep. You know when you are so tired it feels like you’re falling. I was experiencing that sensation, as though I was falling into a big black abyss.
The red haze surrounded me like it was trying to swallow me whole. It felt like I could breathe. A sense of dread engulfed me for I knew what was going to happen. The man I hated, the beast who had stolen everything from me was trying to take over the dream. That was not something I wanted. As the fog began to fade I begged myself to wake. Demons had a way of invading and holding victims against their will, I knew there was no escape and yet I still held hope that something would wake me. Anything would be better than seeing HIM.
“Well it is nice to know you’re alive, my dear, sweet Lilli.” The voiced hissed reverberating inside my head. A singular long claw ran down my arm, sending a chill through my body. Quickly I snatched my arm away, feeling dirty.
“Cayn?” I asked trying to stop my voice from quivering.
“Who else dear? Did you think I was dead? Did you think I wouldn’t search for you?”
I didn’t reply. How could I, he didn’t want to hear my answer, all he cared about was himself. I could hear him snicker as those dark, dead eyes stared down upon me. I pinched my arm harder.
“It won’t work, no matter how hard you pinch or beg, you can’t leave this dream until I want you to and right now I don’t want you to go anywhere…you and me, we need to talk.”
“I’m not talking to you, I hate you!” I yelled.
“Hate me… No, I don’t think you hate me, I think you hate that you picked the wrong side. Who is going to save you now? Huh? You need me Lilly. There are people who want you dead but not I…”
“No” I cut him off. “You just want my body. You don’t care about me Cayn, you can’t care about anyone.”
“I cared for your mother, deeply.” Cayn replied. I didn’t know what to say, I knew he had a thing for my mother, which by the way kinda grossed me out, but still he was Cayn.
“Lilly no matter what you think you know or what I might have said I always did care about you. I still do.”
“Stop lying to me, I don’t believe you.”
“I’ve never lied to you, not really. You know I killed Stewart but that was for your own good Lilly, he was dangerous. All I ever wanted was for you to love me but instead you choose another, you were the one who lied to me Lilly.”
I stopped myself from replying, I hadn’t really lied to him, not really. Maybe I had known my feelings for Levi were stronger but that wasn’t lying, not really.
“You see, you can’t even deny the fact, it is ok I guess deep down I wanted to believe your lies as much as you did. Still where is Levi now? I am here trying to protect you Lilly, you just need to trust me.”
“Trust you!” I stormed over to where he stood. “I can never trust you, you are evil, you are what is wrong with every killer, rapist, thief in this world. You take and take without ever wondering about the cost, the impact you have. You are the very thing nightmares are made of and you want me to trust you…you got to be kidding.”
“How am I evil? How am I all that is wrong with this world? All I wanted was to live, to be free of the restraints of an order which is more corrupt then us. Evil existed on this planet long before us Lilly. We don’t force people to be evil we just allow those to live as they choose. Why be with one man or woman for all your life when you can two or three or ten. Besides no one really controls humans, there are who they were always going to be when they live in our territory.” Cayn smiled spotting my confused look. “You know very little about us and therefore you know very little about yourself. Not everything is as black or white, good or evil as you think. Come to me and I’ll teach you, show you who you really are. You need me Lilly.”
“I will never, ever, need you Cayn. I hate you, really, hate you.”
“Are you sure about that? I don’t think you do, I think you are hurt and confused Lilly. It might not be today but one day you will come to see that I am not as evil as you think I am.” With one quick movement he was in front of me, his mouth pressed against my ear. “One kiss and I’ll let you leave this dream.” He whispered one hand knotted in my hair the other holding me close. I let his mouth touch mine, I let him kiss me. There was nothing there, no spark, nothing and for that I was relieved. He must’ve taken my relief as a sigh of me liking him for when he stepped away I saw the triumphant look on his face. Anger swelled with in, he thought I had feels for him.
“You don’t think I hate you…fine. You mean nothing to me, nothing! The next time you see me will be when I am plunging my knife into your gut and craving you up just like you did to Stewart!”
“You wanna play, find then, we’ll play.” He hissed as a sound, much like a thunder clap, echoed. I found myself tied to the large apple tree that was in the town square of Paradise end. Thankfully I wasn’t completely naked my bra and panties saving me from embarrassment. Cayn still in his human form, had a devilish grin aimed at me as snakes slithered around my feet.
“You want to hate me, fine then Lilly, hate me. Come after me and cut me into little pieces…oh wait you can’t cuz you’re tied to our tree. Poor Lilly, whatever will you do. You deny the truth, push my buttons and hurt my feelings all while telling me this is what I’ve done to you. Listen to me, trust me and I will help you.”
“I do hate you and I will never trust you. Not even if my life does depend on it.” My tone low and mean, just the way I wanted to sound.
“Fair enough, time to shake things up then.”
There was another loud crack. I watched as the altar stood before me, a man’s body strapped into place. Two girls, one whom I assumed was Paige, were gathered around the man. They girls weren’t naked which I was thankful for, instead they had on tiny short shorts with a singlet. Bronze plated bull masks covered their faces and their hair was tied back neatly. It was indeed a very strange look.
“Girls, girls, girls, you need to move so that Lilli here, can get a better look of who we have brought to the party.” Cayn danced his way joyfully to my side. Clearly he was enjoying a lot more than I was. They separated, allowing me to see Jude’s bright blue eyes staring back at me.
“I wonder, what would you do to save him though Lilly?” Cayn asked mockingly before setting me free. I woke shocked and shaking.