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Lilly Vale thought her life couldn't get any more complicated then it already was...but she was wrong. Blood will spill as father goes against daughter in the effort to control the world. Who can Lilly trust when it's not only her life at stake!
I have exciting news, Blood Lilly is off for proofing before landing on my publishers desk. As a little bit of a treat for those who enjoyed Death Lilly here is a sneak peek at the rough draft of Chapter 2...enjoy
(please note this chapter may have changes due to editing process)
It was night three in this hell hole and I was beginning to go mad. I didn’t leave my room for fear of not knowing who was out to get me. Jude hadn’t come back like he promised and even though I had some serious talking to do with him killing my mom, I was still scared. Jude was my only friend and that was saying a lot about the people I hung around with. One minute my life seemed prefect the next minute the guy I loved had disappeared and the guy I was going out with was trying to kill me…well he was now I think and all over some stupid prophecy. I was hot property in the demon world and a huge liability to angels. Yay for me! On top of that I had only recently worked out that demons could walk in dreams, taking them over. Every time I shut my eyes I wondered if it would happen. Basically to sum it all up my life was a mess. I was a huge mess! And… the world didn’t even know what was going on.
I knew it was shallow of me, still that didn’t stop me from wishing it were true. My home was probably gone, my family…well I had none except for father who I was sure had some part in my mother’s death and I doubted he wanted to do the family reunion thing anytime soon. My friends had been all a part of the fallen which meant they were demons. Jude was a cursed one which meant he killed demons, like my mom and also he was meant to kill me over a year ago now. I didn’t know why he hadn’t but something stopped him and made him my friend.
I looked at the neon flashing lights on the little bedside alarm clock radio and sighed. Only a few hours until midnight and then would begin day four. Waiting was not my favorite thing to do. I was so sick and tired of waiting around to see what happens next. I wanted to find Jude and I want to kill Cyan. Well if I were being honest I wasn’t sure if I could kill him but I knew that I hurt him and that would make me feel better. For now I couldn’t even think of the others. Paige, Amy, Tyler…they all deserved to pay for the lies they told me. I really hoped that Jude had been able to kill at least one of them. Of course there was Levi, I tried to not think about him, my chest would ache and tears would flow when I did. I hadn’t really had time to process my feelings for him and what he had done to me. Cayn and Levi had broken me like no others before them. Something inside me was gone, stolen from me at the hands of their games. I wasn’t sure I believed in love anymore. I hoped that Levi would stay out of my life forever; he was far too dangerous to be in it. Something told me that if he came back I would find it too hard to tell him to go away. I didn’t have the strength in me to watch him walk away again. Tears prickled my eyes as I hugged the flat pillow for comfort. I wanted to be stronger than this, I needed to be. For the first time in ages I felt myself drift off to sleep. You know when you are so tired it feels like you’re falling. I was experiencing that sensation, as though I was falling into a big black abyss.
The red haze surrounded me like it was trying to swallow me whole. It felt like I could breathe. A sense of dread engulfed me for I knew what was going to happen. The man I hated, the beast who had stolen everything from me was trying to take over the dream. That was not something I wanted. As the fog began to fade I begged myself to wake. Demons had a way of invading and holding victims against their will, I knew there was no escape and yet I still held hope that something would wake me. Anything would be better than seeing HIM.
“Well it is nice to know you’re alive, my dear, sweet Lilli.” The voiced hissed reverberating inside my head. A singular long claw ran down my arm, sending a chill through my body. Quickly I snatched my arm away, feeling dirty.
“Cayn?” I asked trying to stop my voice from quivering.
“Who else dear? Did you think I was dead? Did you think I wouldn’t search for you?”
I didn’t reply. How could I, he didn’t want to hear my answer, all he cared about was himself. I could hear him snicker as those dark, dead eyes stared down upon me. I pinched my arm harder.
“It won’t work, no matter how hard you pinch or beg, you can’t leave this dream until I want you to and right now I don’t want you to go anywhere…you and me, we need to talk.”
“I’m not talking to you, I hate you!” I yelled.
“Hate me… No, I don’t think you hate me, I think you hate that you picked the wrong side. Who is going to save you now? Huh? You need me Lilly. There are people who want you dead but not I…”
“No” I cut him off. “You just want my body. You don’t care about me Cayn, you can’t care about anyone.”
“I cared for your mother, deeply.” Cayn replied. I didn’t know what to say, I knew he had a thing for my mother, which by the way kinda grossed me out, but still he was Cayn.
“Lilly no matter what you think you know or what I might have said I always did care about you. I still do.”
“Stop lying to me, I don’t believe you.”
“I’ve never lied to you, not really. You know I killed Stewart but that was for your own good Lilly, he was dangerous. All I ever wanted was for you to love me but instead you choose another, you were the one who lied to me Lilly.”
I stopped myself from replying, I hadn’t really lied to him, not really. Maybe I had known my feelings for Levi were stronger but that wasn’t lying, not really.
“You see, you can’t even deny the fact, it is ok I guess deep down I wanted to believe your lies as much as you did. Still where is Levi now? I am here trying to protect you Lilly, you just need to trust me.”
“Trust you!” I stormed over to where he stood. “I can never trust you, you are evil, you are what is wrong with every killer, rapist, thief in this world. You take and take without ever wondering about the cost, the impact you have. You are the very thing nightmares are made of and you want me to trust you…you got to be kidding.”
“How am I evil? How am I all that is wrong with this world? All I wanted was to live, to be free of the restraints of an order which is more corrupt then us. Evil existed on this planet long before us Lilly. We don’t force people to be evil we just allow those to live as they choose. Why be with one man or woman for all your life when you can two or three or ten. Besides no one really controls humans, there are who they were always going to be when they live in our territory.” Cayn smiled spotting my confused look. “You know very little about us and therefore you know very little about yourself. Not everything is as black or white, good or evil as you think. Come to me and I’ll teach you, show you who you really are. You need me Lilly.”
“I will never, ever, need you Cayn. I hate you, really, hate you.”
“Are you sure about that? I don’t think you do, I think you are hurt and confused Lilly. It might not be today but one day you will come to see that I am not as evil as you think I am.” With one quick movement he was in front of me, his mouth pressed against my ear. “One kiss and I’ll let you leave this dream.” He whispered one hand knotted in my hair the other holding me close. I let his mouth touch mine, I let him kiss me. There was nothing there, no spark, nothing and for that I was relieved. He must’ve taken my relief as a sigh of me liking him for when he stepped away I saw the triumphant look on his face. Anger swelled with in, he thought I had feels for him.
“You don’t think I hate you…fine. You mean nothing to me, nothing! The next time you see me will be when I am plunging my knife into your gut and craving you up just like you did to Stewart!”
“You wanna play, find then, we’ll play.” He hissed as a sound, much like a thunder clap, echoed. I found myself tied to the large apple tree that was in the town square of Paradise end. Thankfully I wasn’t completely naked my bra and panties saving me from embarrassment. Cayn still in his human form, had a devilish grin aimed at me as snakes slithered around my feet.
“You want to hate me, fine then Lilly, hate me. Come after me and cut me into little pieces…oh wait you can’t cuz you’re tied to our tree. Poor Lilly, whatever will you do. You deny the truth, push my buttons and hurt my feelings all while telling me this is what I’ve done to you. Listen to me, trust me and I will help you.”
“I do hate you and I will never trust you. Not even if my life does depend on it.” My tone low and mean, just the way I wanted to sound.
“Fair enough, time to shake things up then.”
There was another loud crack. I watched as the altar stood before me, a man’s body strapped into place. Two girls, one whom I assumed was Paige, were gathered around the man. They girls weren’t naked which I was thankful for, instead they had on tiny short shorts with a singlet. Bronze plated bull masks covered their faces and their hair was tied back neatly. It was indeed a very strange look.
“Girls, girls, girls, you need to move so that Lilli here, can get a better look of who we have brought to the party.” Cayn danced his way joyfully to my side. Clearly he was enjoying a lot more than I was. They separated, allowing me to see Jude’s bright blue eyes staring back at me.
“I wonder, what would you do to save him though Lilly?” Cayn asked mockingly before setting me free. I woke shocked and shaking.
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It is often, far too easy, to allow yourself to become engulfed in self pity. I
know this because for the past month or so that is what I have allowed to
happen. Instead of focusing on the good things in my life I allowed myself to
be dragged into a world of hurt, pain and sorrow. I focused on all the things I
had no control over and let the darkness eat away at my soul.
isn't meant to be easy. We are all blessed with fantastic lives and wonderful
attitudes. Every now and then i think it is natural for us, as humans, to get
sucked into the darkness of depression and stress. It is how you work to get
yourself out of the darkness that counts.
I am glad that I can now see
what it was doing to me. Taking me away for my friends, shutting down my
writing and making me one unhappy person to be around. No is the time for
change, time for me to pick myself back up and dust myself off. Most of all it
is time for me to stop feeling sorry for myself and to be at peace with the
things in my life that i can't change. You can not control what life throws at
you, only what you do and how you do it.
I know it wont be easy, these
last two years haven't been easy. But I am finally healthy (thank goodness) and
my writing was going great. I hopefully don't have to go through any more blood
tests (if i be good) and the only doctors I will see will be the ones who treat
me for stuff like the common cold etc. And even though I know next year will be
just as hard as this year I am ready to accept it and move forward, starting
with me writing this blog and committing to getting positive and being happy
So now for the writing news :)
Well Death Lilly is
only 3 months away woo hoo!
I have 6 stories submitted two novellas and
four short stories.
A story coming out in a FREE anthology by authors from
our goodreads group http://www.goodreads.com/group/show/65690-paranormal-and-horror-lovers
have one story sitting at 18k waiting for me to get over my funk and write some
more and I have a few more sitting at only a few thousand words also waiting to
Thank you guys for reading this! Taking the time to let me
share with you a part of my life. It is a real blessing to have people who are
willing and wanting to be apart of your life, even if it is only online!
There is very little else that is as satisfying as finding someone or ones, who
is willing to take a chance on you. When you find someone or in my case a group
of people who want to share your passion, nurture your skills and help you live
the dream…what more could you want?
That is something I have been lucky to find at the Firefly and Wisp Publishing Company. Everyone there from Publisher down to the other authors are always willing to help. I have seen their support during times when I felt alone in the big, wide world of becoming an author.
When I was sure my writing sucked and I had no hope in hell
of every making it work, their encouragement saw me through, giving me the
strength to have faith in my work and to write. Now I have three stories in
Firefly and Wisp anthologies and my first novel, Death Lilly is due out in Nov.
Danielle, Firefly and Wisp’s Publisher has spent many hours chatting
with me. She is there when I need encouragement and I can tell she wants what’s
best for me and my writing. That is something I feel very lucky to have. I can
talk to her about anything even though we are countries apart. This is something
I have learnt is not very common. We you become a Firefly and Wisp Author,
you’re not just another face in the crowd but your family.
Phyllis, Lisa, Jay, Crystal, Roy, Caitlin and the rest are some of the authors
who write stories which blow my mind. They are some of my greatest friends,
always cracking a joke and teasing me for being from Australia hehe. They also
look over my work, critiquing it, giving me hints here and there, especially as
my stories are American based. With my husband being in the military he is often
away. It is during those times I can rely on them for support making me feel
So why I am telling you all this… why now? Well the
answer is I have just been through a few hellish months. I have maybe seen my
husband 4 weeks all up since the beginning of April and he is still has more
trips to go to. I have also completed the most manuscripts ever this year…a
grand total of 9 from shorts to novels; and I have three more on the go. My
firefly and Wisp family have been there, though all of this. Taking time to chat
and read though these, help me to get them ready for the world. Now that I have
the confidence to believe in my work, thanks to the team, I just want to share
it with the world.
While there are many, many friends, most of whom
I’ve meet since I began writing, I feel it is nice to recognise where it all
started. So many others have been there for me, encouraging me and the amazing
friendships I have found, well it’s enough to make a girl cry…I know I wouldn’t
have found them if not for Firefly and Wisp!
Thank you for taking
the time to read this!
P.s here are
some links so you can check out these people also!